Does it ever get any easier?

I wonder each passing year if it ever gets any easier. It is soooo hard to believe that today marks the ninth year since the birth and death of our eldest children. I really thought by now that loss would be easier. I really thought by now, 3 healthy babies later, the sting wouldn't be quite so bad. But, sadly, it is. I guess you never get over burying your children. The thoughts of never seeing their first smiles, first steps, hearing their first coos, laughs...it just breaks my heart. However, I am at a place where I realize that their death was only a beginning for them. I can only imagine how beautiful, healthy, and happy they are in Heaven. That does give me comfort. I just wanted to publish this post to say happy birthday to my oldest babies. I love you Emily and Erika and miss you sooooo much. I look forward to the day I can hold you in my arms again!